the fear.

i woke up today still feeling gloomy because of yesterday's incident. i look outside my window and saw the road which pedestrians use to go to metro is not busy as every other day. i guess people still traumatized by the blast and decided to use other alternatives rather than the metro.

the four of us decided not to go for class today after we heard a shocking news from a local radio yesterday. two women wearing hijab were beaten inside the metro by 5 other passengers. since the suspects of the two blasts were announced as female and might be muslim (i dont know how they can came up with that theory), the russians are now punishing the innocent muslims. this is so not fair.

and yesterday, after the blasts, when a malaysian student entered the metro, all passengers inside the wagon went out. that is so humiliating. i can't imagine if i was in that girl shoes. so sad.

there's been rumors that more attacks will happen in the future. i can't skip the class forever. i can't avoid the metro forever. all i can do is tawakal.

'what if i was in the train when the blast happened?' ajal maut boleh jadi bila-bila dan dimana saja. but have i prepared myself enough for that? definitely no. i am so grateful that Allah gave me and my friends another chance to live. and i will try to live the best out of it. InsyaAllah.